Comments on: In Search of You

By: Jacqui

Jacqui — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 01:19:35 +0000

Gail, your post really touched me and brought me to tears. I too once felt like you did although for different reasons. You are not what happened to you. It is not your fault. You need to look in the mirror and tell yourself you are special and you are good enough and you need to give yourself a hug. Imagine what you would tell one of your own children and you then need to tell your inner self that. At first it seems like a crock but you need to keep doing it. As a adult when I started to challenge those beliefs I felt like an onion with all my layers off and then it was important for me to find for myself what I needed and give it to myself. It is a long journey but well worth the effort. Be kind to yourself.

You know the tears come from being sad that I let it control my life for so long and all I did was hurt myself and I didn’t deserve it. If I could use Craig’s words: I am a powerful woman now not the fearful child I once was.

Jac

By: Ben

Ben — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 12:14:52 +0000

We are all silver balls bouncing around the pinball machine of life. Enjoy the ride.

By: Craig

Craig — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 11:53:31 +0000

Thanks for dropping by Jeff – nice to meet you and thanks for sharing

By: Craig

Craig — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 11:52:48 +0000

Hi Littlejohn.. .love it.

By: Jeff

Jeff — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 09:02:48 +0000

Hi Craig,
Just found you serendipidously and saw great meaning in your post to Christina. I just wanted to mention that most of our lives we are too hard on ourselves – that our attention , by our nature, focuses at fixing things when we are not all happy and gleeful. And when we can’t immediately fix our happiness we see ourselves as a failure because we have a goal to accomplish ..but somehow end up a little short. This is our journey of change and discovery – a little scary, a little unorthodox and mostly like the blind leading the blind. We are not use to thinking that the unknown can be and is totally okay – instead we associate knowledge with security most often. Recognize this Christine, the fact that you observed this moment of static and of not knowing who you are was a huge step that unconsciously found itself ACTING in your life. Normally, the surprising or the shocking to us is a wake up call, is another step in our journey, is our unconscious self moving us forward when we don’t intellectually seem able. You also embraced this moment of discovery by sharing and connecting and then by receiving all these great comments. If I didn’t know any better, I would say that you know exactly what you are doing;)…you are listening to yourself, acting in response and receiving for your efforts. Well done. All your emotions, ups and downs, failures and successes are part of experiencing the wonder journey of life-they are the gift of life – don’t throw anything away! Keep going – you are most powerful.
Jeff

By: Christina

Christina — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 08:18:23 +0000

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to say thanks for your lovely comments and valuable advice. I’m going to print them all out and take them on board.

What a marvellous and kind-hearted group of people you are. I’m feeling very loved and spesh today.

Christina xxx

By: littlejohn

littlejohn — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 07:44:22 +0000

Peeling back the layers?

A couple of prequisites!

Accept full responsibility for why I am what I am.

Plus a heavy forgiveness session, which is not about forgiving others (I don’t want to give a stuff about them, or devote any more of my energy to them), but forgiving myself for why I am what I am.
It is perfectly understandable that I became what I became due to the negative influences I was/am immersed in. While I continue to hold resentment towards others, that layer of negativity will continue to consume me and block movement forward. Only I have the power to let it go, and to do that I must forgive myself for allowing that negative feeling to have hold over me.
Forgiveness is all about forgiving me and me only, it has nothing to do with any other, no matter how maniacal that presence is/was.
I forgive myself for the resentment and fear I have held.
To move on, I must detach myself from it, peel away that layer.

Ho’oponopono has a saying that is freeing and relieving.
I say it to my inner heart for the hurt I have allowed myself to be consumed with.

“I love you
I am sorry,
Please forgive me,
Thank You”

When I feel fear and resentment come, I say it to quell the influence.

By: littlejohn

littlejohn — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 06:54:40 +0000

Fulcrum
Pivot
Pass

When I become aware that I have been living a lie, endeavouring to be someone that is not me, for whatever feeling of lack…for the seeking of attention, for the seeking of love, for the seeking of being wanted, for the desire to fit in…that moment is pivotal, it is a fulcrum, it is me progressing through the pass, from a life that has been molded to the expectation of others to a life molded by the expectation of my inner heart…that is purely a magical moment, one of the most magical. It may not appear so at the time, as there is a radical change taking place, the fear of leaving what is known (even if it is uncomfortably negative), to journey into the unknown to chance the discovery of my true inner self.

Craig, there is a bounty of magical moments happening these days!

To find my true inner self is not so much doing but removing, by peeling off the layers of negativity that I have become cocooned in from birth. Peeling back the layers with honesty and openness will gradually reveal the special me, who has been there all along. Just peel back the layers, and there I sit, there I am, magical me.
The biggest layer of all is self delusion, and coming to the awareness of why I am what I am, is spectacular progress.

Everybody, crack open that bottle of love champagne and celebrate, it is well deserved!

By: Craig

Craig — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 06:06:51 +0000

Cheers Mon. Nice words.

By: Craig

Craig — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 06:05:47 +0000

Thanks Megan