Dear You… (Epilogue)

Hi.

It’s me again. Well actually, it’s you again but you know what I mean. It seems that we made something of a connection the other day and who am I, you, we… to stand in the way of a breakthrough? A few tears, some quiet reflection and a little snot; all the transformational basics. After such a long time, I wasn’t sure that you would remember my voice, but you did and that made me happy. I was glad you found a moment to be still and quiet. A moment to escape the chaos between your ears and a moment to simply listen to your heart. That’s where hope lives and that’s where I live; your heart. You should visit more often; it’s a much more uplifting place than your head has been lately. I want you to find many more moments like the one we shared the other day. Moments to tune out the noise and tune in to me. Me who knows best and loves you most. Moments to find your way back from the chaos of your daily grind and into the calm of my voice and the power of my words. And moments to slide your hand into mine and just be. If you don’t find space, if you don’t be still and if you don’t take those moments, how will you hear my whispers? How will you know my touch? And how will you recognise my strength? Which is to say, your strength. 

I see part of you wants to hope, but I also see that the reality of it scares you because being hopeful in the past has often been a source of pain. I also hear the numerous “what if” questions that play over and over in your exhausted and anxious mind. I see the wall you have built between yourself and others. On one level that wall protects you, but on another, it destroys you. You know what I’m talking about. I see the brave face that tries to hide the sadness and pain and I see the self-created emotional prison you’ve inhabited for far too long. You might fool them and you may even fool yourself sometimes, but you’ve never fooled me. I know who and what you are. Every part. I see what nobody else sees, I know the unknown and despite your humanity and your flaws, I love you unconditionally now and forever.

Part of my reason for writing again today is to encourage you to continue the journey you started the other day. It wasn’t just an emotional blip on the radar; it was the beginning of something very real, significant and potentially life-changing if you would only allow it to be so. I want you to hold on to that feeling because that is our connection. It’s where you and I meet. Don’t let your fear and self-doubt continue to deprive you of what could and should be; your amazing and beautiful future.

Freedom, power, happiness and hope are all choices and I want you to choose them all. Even though the very thought scares you. I don’t want you to miss out any more. I know that being hopeful is a big challenge for you because you’ve been let down in the past and to be honest, you will be let down again. We call that life. Nonetheless, I want you to be hopeful anyway, because a life without hope is no life at all. You will be fine. Your problems will become lessons and your lessons will become your strength. I know the power that lives in you because I am that power. And I know the talent and potential because I am that talent and I am that potential.

While I want you to freely give and receive love – life’s greatest joy – I don’t want you to be dependant on any one person for your happiness or security. For the most part, dependency equals dysfunction and dysfunction equals pain. The moment you are totally reliant on someone else for your emotional and psychological survival, is the moment you have given away your power. And you’ve done that too many times already. For years you’ve looked for external approval, strength, support and even ‘permission’ from others, when all you ever needed to do was look within. It’s all there. You are enough. More than enough. You always have been. For years you’ve over-estimated others while under-estimating yourself. You trusted them, while doubting me. That is, you. And it was always your doubt – not your ability – that stood between you and your dreams. You and transformation. You and enlightenment. You and happiness.

It’s time for change.

I know that taking chances doesn’t come easily to you; I want you to take them anyway. I know your fears because I listen to the internal dialogue, I see through your eyes and I feel what you feel. You may not know it, comprehend it or even believe it yet, but I am telling you that you have more strength, courage and power than you could ever imagine, if only you would open that door. Your perceived weakness comes not from lack of power or potential but rather, from lack of belief. It’s time for you to believe. In you. Self-belief comes not from a place of arrogance or ego, but from a place of knowing and understanding. Knowing and understanding who you are and what you are capable of.

And you are indeed capable of much.

It’s time for you to stop empowering others and sabotaging yourself. Time to step out of the darkness of fear and into the light of your potential. You are worthy. You are good enough. You are talented. You are powerful. And you are loved and valued more than you know. The voice that tells you otherwise is not logic or intelligence. It is the betrayer; fear. The one who would steal your passion, your promise, your potential and your possibilities, if you would let him.

So this will be my last letter to you for some time but I will be speaking to you daily. All you need to do is pay attention. I have written enough for the moment and now it is time for you to do. Do what you were born to do.

Still watching, still whispering, still loving and still holding out my hand.

Speak soon

You xx