A few months ago I started a new job knowing it was time for a change. Though now I find myself between a rock and a hard place – my new position is no better than the old, and to my great sadness, I have realised that all it is doing for me is sapping my energy and soul. All I’ve ever wanted deep in my gut is to help people – though the old same old excuses stopped me from getting there – all those outer influences and voices had gotten in the way of me understanding HOW I want and can help people (even though I’ve been that person for the people in my life up to this point – ironic isn’t it?). So today it all came to a head and I cried, no – I BAWLED and saw what I had become, a ball of living fear – and heartbroken for letting myself get there. So sitting there with someone dear to my heart (who has shared my journey in non-judgement), terrified, decided that fear was not going to rule me and that I’m going to face it head on and say BRING IT ON!!

So, I’m not waiting til after I’ve completed my courses to find an opportunity, I’m going to do it now. I’m still not quite sure how, but even if it is using the office background to start at a desk job and work my way through – I am going to start that journey NOW! No more waiting and compromising.

And though I am still scared, having made the decision and set some deadlines for it (including accountability for sticking to it), my soul already feels a little lighter, more loved and like I’m moving on the right path again.

Love your work Craig xx

TG – sorry, can’t. In late, out early. Next time.

Thanks for all your contributions everyone x

A bit shell shocked at first…but now i realise that i FINALLY have myself back. I was speeding down a track that had me so derailed i didnt even recognise myself in the mirror.

Lesson learnt!! Thanks for bringing this difficult subject to the forefront Craig

It is not easy to be an individual. Jesus was. Look what happend!

(ps not pushing religion ok)

All the best! Great post as well.

Adelaide on Thursday.

Coffee??